Some of you may not know what has been going on the past week so I will fill you in...
In the last post I mentioned that I was fighting an infection that just was not clearing up. Well, it got worse. It started out as
Mastitis, which is very common in women who just had babies. It usually happens when a milk duct gets blocked. It ended up turning into an infection. I went to the doctor and got antibiotics to get it taken care of. Actually, back up... the very first sign that I had an infection (I had a fever), I actually went to the emergency room (Feb. 23) because I knew how dangerous it could be. It had recently happened to my sister-in-law so I really didn't want the same thing to happen to me. After going to the ER, my midwife even came to the house and helped me with it that week and it actually got a lot better. It was almost completely gone. Then a couple of days later I got another blockage! So I tried really hard to get rid of it before it got worse, but it didn't get better. That is when I went to the doctor and got the antibiotics.
After a long Friday afternoon (March 7) of trying to find a doctor that was open I finally discovered my gynecologist was open and went to him. (Sorry if any of this is TMI (too much information)) :) Anyway, he gave me an antibiotic, I went to the pharmacy to pick it up and went home. As soon as I got home I saw that on the box it said Penicillin. "Oh no!!!!" I was so mad because I am allergic to Penicillin. I called my doctor back to tell him about it. He said it wasn't straight Penicillin and it was the only antibiotic that was safe for Heidi so he suggested that I try it anyway and let him know right away if I had any problems. I took it for 6 days and had no reactions to it that I noticed until the 6th day (March 13th). I started noticing a rash all over my body. During this time the infection did not get better, but worse. I also noticed my body getting very very sore to the point where I could hardly move my arms let alone pick up Heidi. It was so awful.
On Thursday, the 13th I went back to my doctor and told him it was not better. He then gave me his apologies that it had not worked and sent me to the hospital. He said I would probably have to have an intravenous antibiotic and the two choices would be either: one that Heidi couldn't have and I would have to stop nursing, or one that would reduce the milk and could leave me with not being able to nurse her anyway. Great choices, huh? He also said I would probably have to be there a couple of days. With this great news, Clint and I went home to eat lunch and to pack a bag for me and for Heidi, in the hopes that she could stay with me.
When we got to the hospital, after getting sent from one floor to the next, one nurse to the next doctor, it was finally decided that the infection had become an
abscess and the only thing they could do for it to heal was to operate. They told me to come back on Friday and they would make an incision to drain the abscess.
The operation went well and I got to come home from the hospital today. The only thing is that they had to leave the wound open and clean it out everyday until it begins to grow back together and heal on its own. (Sorry for all the gory details) Anyway, so all I need to do now is to rest and go back to the hospital everyday for them to clean it and change the bandages for awhile.
It's really not as bad or painful as it sounds though. Thankfully the incision they made was really small and when they clean it, it doesn't hurt that bad. The only thing that has still bothered me has been my arms. They still hurt sometimes, but I can tell that it is also getting better. Hopefully this will all be cleared up soon.
I just wanted to thank everyone who knew what was going on and was praying for me. I also appreciate the continual prayers that are being said for me.
Oh, I almost forgot to write about the worst part of all of this. The doctors all strongly suggested that I stop nursing her immediately. They all felt it was the only option. Although, I know that there are other options out there, Clint and I decided that with all the problems I have had up to now with nursing, that it just is the best decision for us. Even the day before I went to the hospital we went to the pediatrician and she said that she wasn't gaining enough weight and that I needed to supplement with formula anyway. As of the last time we weighed her she was just 8 lb. 6 oz. which isn't much at almost 2 months considering she weighed 7 lb. 11 oz. at birth.
Anyway, to sum it all up, we felt that maybe this is just the best thing to do... plus all the doctors really wanted me to stop nursing anyway. I am still really sad about it though and have pretty much cried everyday since I found out. Well, today I haven't, which brings me to my next thought.
The more I was upset about everything that has been going on the more I prayed about it and thought about it. I came to the conclusion that it all was something I could not control... I did everything I could do by going to the doctor to get it taken care of as soon as possible and all the doctors did what they could do too. The only one who can control it is God and so I have been praying that I can let go of it to Him and He can heal me and take care of Heidi and keep her healthy even though she has to take the bottle now. I know that a lot of babies have to bottle feed and they are healthy so I just have to leave it up to God now and not worry about it.
Well, I'm sorry that this is so long, but I guess I just wanted to updated everyone and ask for prayers for me and for Heidi now. I love you all!