I know that this is completely irrational and my head tells me it is completely untrue. But sometimes my heart feels like no one really cares about the things that are important to me, a.k.a. my time in Germany and the emotions I still feel about coming back to the States. I know this is probably mostly due to the fact that no one really "gets it" because they didn't have the same experiences I did. I get that. But I guess somehow my heart still feels deep down this aching feeling like no one cares. I just thought it would be good to get some of these feelings out there to share. Maybe some of you can share your similar feelings that have been through this too.
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By the way, if you are reading this and you're worried you did or said something to offend or hurt me don't worry. It's nothing like that. It's just some emotions I'm going through right now.
Hey April. We're not there yet; but we will be. We have heard similar feelings from those who have also had re-entry shock, so I know you are not the only ones. I do know that I felt murmurings of what you wrote each time more and more that we went back on furlough. So I'm empathizing... :-) I think you're very brave to go ahead and write honestly about what others sometimes try to hide. Thanks for your transparency...it's a good example.
-Bri
Hang in there girl and keep talking about how you are feeling. I think you'll feel better if you do : )
Love you!
I'm sorry it takes so looong for those emotions to go away! But, you do need to get those feelings out, Sweety. I'm also sorry, if we have seemed insensitive, but we have never been through what you and Clint have. We Love You though and God does too! He will give you strength to get through this!
You're doing well to realize that it isn't personal and that it's mostly because they just don't understand. I wish I could tell you that things will change, but really they don't. You will always miss Germany and your friends there and people who have never been away will never understand. As is the case with anything you mourn, the feelings will never go away, but they will get less sharp over time. Hang in there.
April - we definitely understand and have been there more than once. Re-entry shock is more difficult, we found, than the cultureal shock of moving to another country. We would love to get together with you and Clint (& Heidi) and talk. When is the best time for you? We love you guys!
April, I'm so sorry you're feeling homesick. I think it is only natural to feel that way. After all, it plays a key role in the home that you and Clint have built together. We love you and will pray for your continued re-entry.
~Stefanie
I know we've already talked about this, but I just wanted to tell you to hang in there. You guys have done a good job of getting re-acclimated and I think you prepared yourselves prior to leaving Chemnitz. You know I've been in your shoes, but everybody handles it differently and copes differently. "Just home back because I miss you guys so much, still!!!", but my logic tells me you made the right decision for the right reasons. I think it's good to share your feelings and your friends and family need to know how you're feeling. Be open and honest about it with others, as you are with yourself.
love you, Karen
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